Holding on to hope in a sometimes hopeless place. November 17, 2013 by swankylady. View from the in-laws garage. After having a very stormy week with my husband, with lots of stupid arguments and bad attitudes on both sides, real storms hit Illinois and other states in the Midwest today. Now I am exhausted and have the worst headache ever. I feel like puking or crying or both. I do feel thankful no one I know was hurt, but my heart breaks for all those whose lives have been totally uprooted in an.

Thursday, May 29, 2014. Our first IVF cycle failed. It took me two weeks to come out of a fog of sadness and hurt, and another few weeks to process things and get to a point where I could post. But, after many days I prayed. It was a tiny one-liner of a prayer asking God for mercy to carry on. It was all I could get out.

Friday, July 31, 2015. I have two dates coming up this week, and neither is with him. Both of the men were easy to talk to on the phone even if they are completely different. And of course neither of them are him. WHOA! No way, buddy boy! He makes me happy. That kind of blows my mind.